Summer hopes

With the clocks going forward it's a sure sign that Summer is just around the corner and it is by far my most favourite season! This weekend has seen very unexpected beautiful sunshiny days which makes me even more excited for summer. There is something about the feeling of the sun on my face it just makes me feel all happy inside and it is just what I have needed! These past two weeks have seen me ill with a terrible cough and flu and the very sad passing of my grandmother.

My lovely Nan sadly passed away in the hospital after a battle for the last 6 months with lots of small strokes and illnesses. She has suffered for many years from diabetes and high blood pressure but always came across to us as a strong woman. She loved to dance in fact at my 18th birthday party she was the first to get on the dance floor and the last to leave it! This was one of the sad things as over the last few years she started to get pain in her legs and was unable to go to her dance clubs and had to go out shopping on her mobility scooter (she always wanted her independence to get around).

My husband said the first time he met my Nan was at Christmas we went to my parents house for Christmas Dinner and the tradition after is always to play a board game. This particular year we opted to play Singstar on the PlayStation and my Nan took great delight in joining in she did a great rendition of Westlife's "world of our own" the playback was hilarious and she always loved to join in and be a great sport. She will be missed a lot at least she is no longer in pain and is at rest

Nan and I on my birthday a few years a go shes wearing the sparkle necklace I gave her one year for her birthday she always wore it when we went out we both like our sparkle

Nan and my uncle in our photo booth at our wedding always glam!

At our wedding love this picture of her smiling

With my Nan passing it has made me think more about life which funny enough a death tends to make you do. It makes you think about your own mortality and what you want to get out of life. It has made me think about children I have always thought that I didn't want any but maybe it's time for me to stop being selfish and think about bringing another life into this family, a son or daughter for my husband and a grandchild for our parents and that child should enjoy the memories that I have with my family. I'm not about to get pregnant right now mind you I think we have a few more years to wait!

So with this new season it brings a new hope and maybe even a new me.

Love you Nan xxxx